Stubborn About Being Stubborn!

I think God knows I need Him to be direct.  He almost needs to be elementary about it.  I get an idea in my head and it’s hard to get it out, unless I’m hit over the head by a thought which I cannot deny.  I’ve been stubborn about admitting that I’m stubborn.

I show dogged determination not to change my attitude or position on something, especially in spite of good arguments or reasons to do so.  Just letting you know, that is the definition of Stubborn.

When I get in this rut of not being able to see the true picture, I ask God for a sign.  Isaiah 7:11 says I can, so I do!  “Ask the LORD your God for a sign of confirmation, Ahaz. Make it as difficult as you want–as high as heaven or as deep as the place of the dead.”

Believe me I did!  I asked God to give me a sign, one in which I thought would be impossible.  Before we moved to Colorado, I asked God to make it clear to me and please give me an obvious sign on what we need to do

On my way to my sisters to help her with a garage sale, I asked God to say something to me on the radio to show me if Colorado was the way to go.  I thought, this will be hard, but if it happens, it’s a sign.  The very next commercial was from Colorado Christian University!  Ok, I see what you are doing, God, but still, that is a pretty common commercial, I forgot about that one being on quite often.  Still have doubts on what to do! See my lack of faith?  Not proud of this.

My husband called right after to tell me he was driving behind a Colorado license plate!  Ok, hmmm, maybe we just don’t realize how many Colorado license plates are in Indiana!  There I go again, oh me of little faith!  Yes, I doubted again.

Now I’m helping at the garage sale, still searching for answers from God.  I said to God, “Ok!  If someone comes up and gives me a Colorado quarter, that is your answer and I will stop bugging you about it.”  Sure enough, the next person paid in quarters and the first one I looked at was a Colorado quarter!

Seriously, today, I battle and go back and forth to God.  maybe it was you, maybe it was a coincidence!  Oh me of little faith.  God gave me some trials to stop the doubting.  I don’t recommend the route I took!

I only tell you this, so that you can see that God does care and God is faithful, even in our doubts.  If He loves a sinner like me, who messes up more than I care to admit at the moment, then there is no way, He will not be there for you.

Please forgive me, God, of my little faith and doubt.  Thankfully, God knows me and my stubborn way of thinking.  He knows I’m a drifter, therefore He gives me more trials than I think are normal.  He knows doubt creeps in, so He shows me His faithfulness in obvious ways.

As with any relationship, communication between one another takes time.  It’s not any different with God.  You have to turn to His Word in order to Hear His voice.

Today, God gave me another sign.  They have been coming in threes’s, so I will sit here when I’m finished writing to see God talk to me once again.  I love talking to God and I love it when I recognize His presence.

Please talk to God.  He wants to chat with you and He wants you to turn to Him.  He has a will for your life and a plan for your day.  He already paved the road ahead of you, now follow Him, you won’t regret it!