Stubborn About Being Stubborn!

I think God knows I need Him to be direct.  He almost needs to be elementary about it.  I get an idea in my head and it’s hard to get it out, unless I’m hit over the head by a thought which I cannot deny.  I’ve been stubborn about admitting that I’m stubborn.

I show dogged determination not to change my attitude or position on something, especially in spite of good arguments or reasons to do so.  Just letting you know, that is the definition of Stubborn.

When I get in this rut of not being able to see the true picture, I ask God for a sign.  Isaiah 7:11 says I can, so I do!  “Ask the LORD your God for a sign of confirmation, Ahaz. Make it as difficult as you want–as high as heaven or as deep as the place of the dead.”

Believe me I did!  I asked God to give me a sign, one in which I thought would be impossible.  Before we moved to Colorado, I asked God to make it clear to me and please give me an obvious sign on what we need to do

On my way to my sisters to help her with a garage sale, I asked God to say something to me on the radio to show me if Colorado was the way to go.  I thought, this will be hard, but if it happens, it’s a sign.  The very next commercial was from Colorado Christian University!  Ok, I see what you are doing, God, but still, that is a pretty common commercial, I forgot about that one being on quite often.  Still have doubts on what to do! See my lack of faith?  Not proud of this.

My husband called right after to tell me he was driving behind a Colorado license plate!  Ok, hmmm, maybe we just don’t realize how many Colorado license plates are in Indiana!  There I go again, oh me of little faith!  Yes, I doubted again.

Now I’m helping at the garage sale, still searching for answers from God.  I said to God, “Ok!  If someone comes up and gives me a Colorado quarter, that is your answer and I will stop bugging you about it.”  Sure enough, the next person paid in quarters and the first one I looked at was a Colorado quarter!

Seriously, today, I battle and go back and forth to God.  maybe it was you, maybe it was a coincidence!  Oh me of little faith.  God gave me some trials to stop the doubting.  I don’t recommend the route I took!

I only tell you this, so that you can see that God does care and God is faithful, even in our doubts.  If He loves a sinner like me, who messes up more than I care to admit at the moment, then there is no way, He will not be there for you.

Please forgive me, God, of my little faith and doubt.  Thankfully, God knows me and my stubborn way of thinking.  He knows I’m a drifter, therefore He gives me more trials than I think are normal.  He knows doubt creeps in, so He shows me His faithfulness in obvious ways.

As with any relationship, communication between one another takes time.  It’s not any different with God.  You have to turn to His Word in order to Hear His voice.

Today, God gave me another sign.  They have been coming in threes’s, so I will sit here when I’m finished writing to see God talk to me once again.  I love talking to God and I love it when I recognize His presence.

Please talk to God.  He wants to chat with you and He wants you to turn to Him.  He has a will for your life and a plan for your day.  He already paved the road ahead of you, now follow Him, you won’t regret it!

15 thoughts on “Stubborn About Being Stubborn!

  1. Thank you Cyndi, this is exactly what i needed today. I feel forgotten and like I’m at a exit on the highway that has routed me to this crazy place and I want to get to my Colorado!


    1. I KNOW it will happen for you, Gaylynn. God is slow at answering me when I’ve been away from Him, but He is faithful when I come back. I won’t lie, it takes time to rebuild my communication with God and it does take a while to hear Him. But He hears us, that I know, and He will reply when the work that needed to be done in my heart is to his satisfaction. Ouch, that’s a hard thing to accept too. That I needed work in my heart before He would give me what I needed. But thank God for caring enough to not let me continue on in my ways and give me the desires of my heart. He loves us enough to nudge us into change. Love chatting with you, Gaylynn!


  2. Cyndi, you sound so much like me. I can be stubborn as a mule. In fact my parents always said if I came up against a mule, I would win. I still have moments of doubt (I’m in my late 60’s) but they have become less often. I think part of the reason for this is as we get to know God more, we know His character. By knowing His character some of things we use to question we don’t. Why? Because we know what’s being said is just not something He would say. It goes against His character. Hope this helps you.


    1. My husband often says to me, “Does that sound like something God would say?” then he follows with, “Who is wanting you to think like that?” You are right on, Susan! His word and answers do not contradict or go against His character. Thank you for sharing, very wise!

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  3. Cyndi: Thank you for this post. It’s amazing how often God speaks to us. The question is “am I listening?” Thank you for reminding me to listen.


  4. Truly inspired. I think it was Albert Einstein who said, “You either believe nothing is a miracle or everything is a miracle.” For me it is a clear choice. God has given us so much, it is all a miracle. He talks to each of us in a unique way, the Almighty is also All-loving and merciful.

    I hope you keep talking to God and encouraging others. It is what He told his disciples to do, so you must be right in spreading your appreciation of His gifts. I hope more people read this post.


  5. Hi Cyndi! I wanted to take the time to say, “Thank you!” for liking my most recent post and just for visiting us. Next I want to say thank you again for a very uplifting post – yes, uplifting – why? Because it made me smile (you see I have some stubbornness too). Determination on the other hand can be a good thing and it’s amazing how God can take a trait we see as faults and mold it into something good. It takes time, prayer and heaps loads of obedience and time in the Word BUT it all pays off. I”m not as stubborn and growing more and more determined.

    Blessings to you my friend and I pray your determination blossoms and grows and the stubbornness shrivels away – it will. With God all things are possible!



  6. Haaaa Talk about stubborn, I have stubborn faith on the other hand. But I too ask for signs and God sure gives them in so many ways. But if you are not in the spirit you fail to see the signs even when they slap you straight in the face 🙂


  7. Hi Cindy,

    first of all, thank you for visiting my blog.
    I have been stubborn and doubtful and still have some work left in the area of doubt. But, through some very good friends the Lord showed me I was afraid to take risks and make mistakes. So I prayed and asked for help. Nowadays it is easier for me to trust God and act on the authority He has given me to just go and do things. So I just wanted to share with you how God helped me through this almost similar thing.


    1. Thank you for saying that. I feel like it’s something I will always need to be aware of. I too have a hard time following the spirit to take risks and especially make mistakes. Blessings to you!


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